I've been blogging here since 2015. A place where I let go of my thoughts. A place where I do not overthink and just let it all out. I've been documenting my journey from when I was an anxious teenager to trying to become a confident adult, comfortable in her skin with every day that goes by.
I hope something here resonates with you, your old self.. or the one you're becoming :)
Thanks for dropping by!
Tuesday, June 21, 2016
A Nightmarish Reality
Friday, June 10, 2016
Craay-zay Misconceptions People Have About Deserts.
It's very obvious for people to have their own set of
curiosities about places they've never been to. But here's a list of
insane questions I've been asked about my native place- The Thar Desert.
1.
Have
you ever seen rain?
For a sec, even I hoped
the inquirer was referring to the song by the Creedence Clearwater Revival. But
nooo. This is the most outrageously absurd question I've come across til date.
And it has to be. He actually meant if I'd ever seen the sky pouring, as if the
clouds get sucked out of the space just because there're sand dunes down on the
clod! *Facepalm*
The Thar Desert, just like any other part of the world experiences the 4
seasons including monsoon. There're even hailstorms and floods that destroy
crops, like other states of India.
2.
Can
you sustain winters?
It's a fact that deserts are subject to extreme temperature changes as freezing
nights alternate with blazing hot days. Rajasthan has it's very own hill
station too- Mount Abu, a part of the Aravalli Range. Mount Abu has a pleasent
climate thanks to its rich dense green forest cover, In summers when typical
temperature of desertious Rajasthan is around 44°C, Mount Abu's temperature is
31-34°C. In winters the temperature ranges from 10°C to-8°C (in Night).
My own city has witnessed temperature extremes of upto -2°C many a times in the
winter season. So yeah, our winter wardrobes are pretty much brimful, just like
your's! Hahh!
3.
Is
everything made of sand?
Now I wouldn't complain if people ask questions because of the bias of
photographic record. I've been asked if Rajasthan's railway tracks and highways
actually look as depicted in the poster of the movie PK. While it's true that
you'd find sand dunes around but that does come with a little vegetation, plain
surface, 4/6 lane roads and flyovers as well. If you're planning to visit the
state and expecting to find mounds of pure sand everywhere for your
photoshoots, you're wrong. You would only find them in limited parts of the
desert.
Don't be surprised if you find more landforms other than desert. Yes, there'll
be hills & uplands, forests, more than a dozen lakes, 2 dozen plus rivers
and lush green farms. Unlike the normal perception, there is vegetation even in
the driest, hottest parts. You'll find these keekar trees almost everywhere, as
far as your sight can go.
4. Do you spot camels roaming around at any hour?
I'm not sure about the
Middle-East and Sahara deserts, but we do not use camels as our means of public
transport (other than exceptions of tourist activities). It's possible that you
might spot a herd of camels in the sub-urbs or near village mandis. But no, we
do not have our personal camels to pet or ride.
Normally, new borns' celebration acts do not include speeches naming 40
camels to the baby and property wills do not constitute of distribution of a
herd of camels amongst the offsprings.
5.
Do you
guys actually witness fights over water sources?
There are some parts
that do get hit by water crisis in summers. But the situation is much better
after the Indira Gandhi Canal Project was completed in the 1980's. Besides,
there are ground water reserves and you'd find hand-pumps in villages and
sub-urbs catering to the water requirements of peeps. However, most of the big
towns and cities hardly face any crisis, and we've got abundant water supply
for all our needs even in summers.
6.
You
guys eat that dish, Daal-Baati, right?
My mother can serve you a plate or more of the most delectable daal-baati
choorma you've ever had. But do not walk-in anyday of the week without prior
notice expecting to join us over a dinner for that! We do eat some vegetables
that you're unfamiliar with, like saangri, pattod and we eat baajri
ki roti more often than you do.
But other than that, we have usual food like you do.
*based on actual incidents.
For a sec, even I hoped the inquirer was referring to the song by the Creedence Clearwater Revival. But nooo. This is the most outrageously absurd question I've come across til date. And it has to be. He actually meant if I'd ever seen the sky pouring, as if the clouds get sucked out of the space just because there're sand dunes down on the clod! *Facepalm*
The Thar Desert, just like any other part of the world experiences the 4 seasons including monsoon. There're even hailstorms and floods that destroy crops, like other states of India.
It's a fact that deserts are subject to extreme temperature changes as freezing nights alternate with blazing hot days. Rajasthan has it's very own hill station too- Mount Abu, a part of the Aravalli Range. Mount Abu has a pleasent climate thanks to its rich dense green forest cover, In summers when typical temperature of desertious Rajasthan is around 44°C, Mount Abu's temperature is 31-34°C. In winters the temperature ranges from 10°C to-8°C (in Night).
My own city has witnessed temperature extremes of upto -2°C many a times in the winter season. So yeah, our winter wardrobes are pretty much brimful, just like your's! Hahh!
Now I wouldn't complain if people ask questions because of the bias of photographic record. I've been asked if Rajasthan's railway tracks and highways actually look as depicted in the poster of the movie PK. While it's true that you'd find sand dunes around but that does come with a little vegetation, plain surface, 4/6 lane roads and flyovers as well. If you're planning to visit the state and expecting to find mounds of pure sand everywhere for your photoshoots, you're wrong. You would only find them in limited parts of the desert.
Don't be surprised if you find more landforms other than desert. Yes, there'll be hills & uplands, forests, more than a dozen lakes, 2 dozen plus rivers and lush green farms. Unlike the normal perception, there is vegetation even in the driest, hottest parts. You'll find these keekar trees almost everywhere, as far as your sight can go.
I'm not sure about the Middle-East and Sahara deserts, but we do not use camels as our means of public transport (other than exceptions of tourist activities). It's possible that you might spot a herd of camels in the sub-urbs or near village mandis. But no, we do not have our personal camels to pet or ride.
Normally, new borns' celebration acts do not include speeches naming 40 camels to the baby and property wills do not constitute of distribution of a herd of camels amongst the offsprings.
There are some parts that do get hit by water crisis in summers. But the situation is much better after the Indira Gandhi Canal Project was completed in the 1980's. Besides, there are ground water reserves and you'd find hand-pumps in villages and sub-urbs catering to the water requirements of peeps. However, most of the big towns and cities hardly face any crisis, and we've got abundant water supply for all our needs even in summers.
My mother can serve you a plate or more of the most delectable daal-baati choorma you've ever had. But do not walk-in anyday of the week without prior notice expecting to join us over a dinner for that! We do eat some vegetables that you're unfamiliar with, like saangri, pattod and we eat baajri ki roti more often than you do. But other than that, we have usual food like you do.
Sunday, April 10, 2016
Do we need to Employ a Police Jawaan for every single Woman and Girl in Delhi for their Safety?
But why does every nasty crime in the National Capital Region of Delhi close the curtain on our 'jawaans' as being solely responsible?
Tweeting "Delhi police is criminals in uniform" somehow intensifies the issue.

Based on my experiences with the Delhi Police, I am highlighting a very serious point here:
The police helpline number in the capital city is tremendously effective. Any call made to the number - 100 - automatically gets logged in a computerised system and a PCR van reaches the scene of crime, given that it is reported!
It's a quite common practice in India to play Holi pranks on relatives, neighbours or even strangers and pedestrians on the roadside. It's okay to some extent, when done in a friendly way. But, for a person like me who's never ever celebrated the festival or indulged in any pranks for personal reasons, getting a water-filled condom smacked at you by a gang of some 20-something goons is A VERY BIG DEAL.
I asked the auto driver to halt the vehicle there itself and dialled 100. (Mind you, a prank isn't just a prank when a crowd gathers around you, gazes at you, mocking your wet clothes and laughs at your face)
Delhi Police's action as soon as I reported the crime:
We were provided help in every way possible by Delhi Police:

Police is not meant to act as our bodyguards, but to take action against those who do wrong within our society.
To sum it up:
Saturday, April 2, 2016
Who is your favourite TV series character and why?
She starts out as a rather slutty cheerleader who isn't good in school and likes to party... a lot! Her character grows as the show goes on and makes everyone fall in love with her, in the most realistic and honest way possible. She has her share of ups and downs, but the way she bounces back is so appealing! |
She is a proof that your past does not define your future. |
She held out for what she deserved. Any time any man treated her less than what she deserved, she made sure he knew it, and then ended things with him. (That's the way you do it ladies!) |
| She was always there to listen and gave great advice… |
| …but she also had sassy comebacks ready for anyone who deserved one. |
Brooke was open about her fears, but refused to let them cripple her. She fought back…
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| She went after her dreams fearlessly, but success didn’t change her. |
| She successfully handled both a career and a family. |
Some Brooke Davis quotes-And once you lose yourself, you have two choices: find the person you used to be... or lose that person completely...
-Someone once said; "It's the good girls who keep diaries. The bad girls never have the time." Me? I just wanna live a life I'm gonna remember, even if I don't write it down.
-(To a reporter) You should be ashamed of yourself. There are kids inside our school fearing for their lives right now, terrified that someone's gonna put a gun in their face and pull the trigger and you want to know how I'm feeling? Our pain is not a commodity for you. It's not a news bite to boost your ratings because tomorrow or the next day or the next week when we go back to school changed forever by a day that will never leave us, where are you gonna be? At the next tragedy thrusting your microphone in the face of the next fractured person asking them how they fell? Lady that is not journalism. You are not contributing anything to society. You are buzzards circling the carnage but you prey on the living. That is how I'm feeling but something tells me you're not gonna air that.- *noticing a computer featuring a magazine cover with a very skinny girl* Guys. Absolutely not. There's no way she gets on the cover of my magazine unless she gains ten pounds minimum. She looks unhealthy. Anorexia is a disease, it is not a fashion statement.
-(to Principal) When I was a freshman, I wasn't a very good person. I mean sure I was popular and dating seniors but as a person I was pretty lost. And over the last four years I've been forced to grow up. I stopped letting boys define me and I started believing in myself and in my potential and I ran for student council president and I designed a clothing line and somewhere along the way the lost, little, party girl became the girl on the wall of honor. And I know what I did was wrong, I know, but the girl I was when I came to this school? I'm not sure she would have. And isn't that the point of high school? Isn't that what you guys have been trying to teach us for the last four years?
Sunday, February 28, 2016
Jat Agitation: Educated Indian Youth Openly Support Vandalised Protests in Favour of Reservation
Delhi University is one of those institutes of India that have the cream of India’s best academic 10+2 pass-out students. With such qualitatively shortlisted bunch of minds, we often happen to believe that this set of students are very promising to the development of our nation.
However, from what I’ve observed, our education system isn’t exactly shortlisting that cream as intended. In fact, it’s maliciousness is leading to a cycle of no hope. I’ve time and again raised my voice against the reservation system of India.
Jat Reservation Agitation 2016
Is our education system blindly promoting individuals with medieval ideas of caste-ism and rioting to get their demands met?


To my surprise, all the inconvenience caused on the NCR highways was just another celebratory achievement for my own classmates. This, when there had been reports of people dying in the ambulances that were stuck in traffic jams caused by the protestors.


This method of demanding reservations cannot be justified, right?
The Solution:
Tuesday, February 23, 2016
Social Media Sins: Blaming the Entire Sects of Communities Whenever Something Goes Wrong!
In light of the on-going Jat Reservation Agitation, here's an urgent appeal to everybody using social media: blaming entire sects of communities will not help! Please don't contribute towards spreading hate for the entire Jat community!
We're all equally angry about what happened in Harayana during the protests!
Now that the violence and riots are slowly starting to diminish, social media posts are wildly surfacing targeting Jats for the violence. Before sharing any such content, make sure you know the entire truth before spreading it like wildfire!There are posts with downright disrespect towards a certain community. Don't be a fool and believe only what's shown to you. It leads to inter-caste hatred and that is the last thing our nation needs right now!
1. Every person hailing from the community does not support riots
Every Jaat was not involved in triggering vandalism. Some are as unhappy as the rest of the country. Stop sharing any content that disrespects a certain community that's in news for a controversy.
Things can turn very ugly if this doesn't stop right here. A very large part of the community everybody's spitting hate about is a part of the Indian Armed Forces that protects every Indian day and night from foreign forces. So, obviously they're gonna feel bad coming across collective hate, right?
2. Every rioter was definitely not a Jat
India has a lot of frustrated youth that take up to hooliganism every chance they get. Why? To just release their tensions! There are cases where Jat youth collected and acted as security for not letting any outsiders enter and ruin THEIR city, irrespective of the communities that reside in it.
A jat dharmashala has been destroyed in Jhajjar district and obviously the jat community cannot be behind this, ruining their very own property! Other groups WERE INVOLVED. Specially political fear-mongers of the country.
If you've shared any such content, please remove it ASAP and do not contribute in creating a further divide between communities. Don't draw conclusions based on the very obvious that's fed to you.
Media and the political parties are also trying to give this a whole new direction altogether:
- the 'non-jat Chief Minister- Manohar Lal Khattar' angle,
- comparison between communities by ONLY mentioning the sikh and other help groups, and
- being totally ignorant towards how some jaat-groups have also aided the affected people and places.
These issues are more sensitive than you think. With such widely spread and used social media, there's an urgent need to take such posts down. What happened was wrong but have faith in democracy and our judiciary. Those who are responsible will be made to pay for it.. whether jats or non-jats.
Please do not take these sensitive issues lightly!
Also Read: Educated Indian Youth Openly Support Vandalised Protests in Favour of Reservation
Sunday, January 31, 2016
The ||DESI कोल्डप्ले|| Controversy
The video is beautiful and the song is amazing, looking to positively capture celebrational aspects of the city's culture, specifically India's Holi festival, cultures associated with Hindu religion, with kids dressed up as the deity Hanuman. Coldplay is commendable for choosing Indian Devnagri scripted theme.. and all of this with soothing music and vocals given by the artists. I've gone across the video, analysed the lyrics for a number of times now, and I don't understand where the butthurts found a misinterpretation of the culture. |
| In the past, Iggy Azalea's Bounce and Selena Gomez's Come And Get It have been accused of the same. So let me get this straight, whenever an artist flies in from the west and gets inspired with our culture, wants to put it on record, we've just got to critisize them right? Criticizers themselves have zero clue about India's culture and diversity. Often culture is 'appropriated' and shown disrespectfully in our own movies! Remember Chennai Express? There were many instances of downright disrespectful to South Indians. Instead of doing it for our beloved bollywood industry's Munni Badnaam Hui and Hua hokra Jaawan Re, we point those out who devise the right away to do it, just because they're outsiders! *slow claps* |
Monday, June 15, 2015
Is Bikaner a good city to live in?
"I've been living in the city for 18 years now (BTW I'm just 18 -.-) and here's my take on this-
People-
- The people are very simple and warm hearted. It wouldn't be surprising if you land up at 3 here in the night and find a group of people (Decent people, not the drunkards slash potential rapists) sitting up and chatting. Credit the "Pata culture" for this.
- They can guide you very well unhesitatingly if you've lost your way or perhaps even drop you securely to your destination.
- WARNING- People can get too interfering (read very very very very interfering) sometimes, especially the non-working groups of locals i.e. housewives, old ladies, pokey unemployed uncles.
Food-
- You will find all sorts of Bhujia-Papad-Namkeen and their variants since Bikaner is the hub of Bhujia. Try googling "Bikaji" and its origin, and you'll know what I'm talking about.
- Bikaner is even famous for its "Rasgullas" and other sweets. You must've seen "Bikaner Sweets" shops in street markets of Harayana and UP. (IMP NOTE: They cannot beat the original Bikaneri taste, not even close to that trust me)
- Make sure you carry extra Bhujia packets with you while returning. For those who know about Bikaner's excellency in Bhujia crave for them as you won't find them at such low costs anywhere else in India!
- For street food lovers, "Junagarh ke saamne" is the ultimate adda to hang out, be it South Indian or Chinese.
- FOR GODS SAKE, Do not, I repeat, DO NOT miss out on Chottu Motu Joshi ki Kachori & Pyaaz-Kachori & Samosa & Paneer-Kofta & Mirchi-Bada *sigh*.
- My roommate's special note- *BK School vale ki Kachori zyada achchi hoti hai*
- However there's a price you'll have to pay for Bhujia. Zero fast food MNC outlets. Yes you read it correct. Zero. No MacD, no Dominoes, no Pizza Hut and no KFC. Luckily there are some good restaurants that come as a relief.
Hospitals-
- We've got an excellently equipped PBM government hospital with most of the hi-tech machines and experienced medical staff available.
- Though it majorly lacks cleanliness, but rest assured it's the best hospital in the entire region of the state for anything as small as a cut/bruise to complex surgeries.
- Apart from that, there's one district satellite hospital and numerous private hospitals and clinics.
Schools-
- We've got good schools upto 12th standard for English and Hindi medium, CBSE as well as RBSE.
- Though I won't say the faculty in every school is satisfactory, but some sure are result-oriented.
- Co-curriculars again, are a mere formality and come as a huge disappointment!
Colleges-
It's a myth that Bikaner has good colleges.
- Even after having it's own university, MGSU, the condition of the colleges isn't satisfactory AT ALL.
- Especially for courses in Arts and Commerce, that too for girls specifically, Bikaner lags behind other cities with a gap of about 2-3 decades.
Bikaner needs hell lot of improvement in this one field!
- There is NO STUDY MATERIAL provided by the university itself for English medium students. Lack of faculty in English medium again, is a major setback.
Markets-
*EDITS:
- There are MNC outlets of some of the major clothing brands but if you're into window shopping, try your luck after a decade or so.
- However if you dig a little deeper into the shady lanes of "Bhairuji ki Gali" you might find something worth your likeness.
- No doubt the traditional and handicraft market is worth appreciation.
- Also the local utensils and jewelry commercial units are commendable.
Places to hang out/Addas-
- If by hanging out we mean going out with friends in the evening to freshen up your mind and mood a little, subsequently being followed by unwanted lecherous creatures all the way to your house, JNV is just the right place.
- Warning- Do not send your daughter out in that place alone unless she knows how to handle hardcore perverts.
- Public Park in the Civil lines area is accommodated by people from all social spheres and can be considered once in a while for a family outing, especially tods.
- Some other places include Junagarh Fort, Sagar and Husansar Dam on the outskirts. However, the latter are not recommended for children and teens from safety point of view.
Traffic Problem-
- By traffic problem I don't mean the lengthy jams of vehicles at traffic lights since we don't have (working) lights except a few.
- Bikaneris are known for their reckless driving skills. Well, not just the autowalas because that's the same for every Indian town.
- But the common men here won't wear helmets or follow the basic traffic rule of being on their side of the lane. They'll stop anywhere on the road anytime when they'll feel like checking out a girl or aunty (yes, aunty), peeing or puking. So be careful.
- And oh! I forgot to mention the jams of peddlers at the very crowded KEM Road train intersection gate. Beware, you can even get struck up for hours in the scotching heat amongst those scary glances by pervs in the crowd.
Connectivity-
- As far as the road connectivity is concerned N11 connects Bikaner with Jaipur and the journey is 5 hour long.
- Bikaner to Delhi is a 9-hour journey via Nh11 and Nh8.
- Bikaner is even well connected with Delhi and Jaipur by rail route.
- And for heaven's sake please don't think we've got Nal Airport open for public use as you might have heard in the news. Credits to previous CM Ashok Gahlot who very proudly inaugrated the Airport couple of years ago but forgot to make sure if it's in a working condition. _/\_"
1. FOOD. Last year god-knows how Dominoes opened up an outlet on outer circle of Panchshati Circle. Yayy!
2. COLLEGES. Last year itself, Bikaner was blessed with it's first ever private university. xD
PS- Suggest edits if any.
Sunday, June 14, 2015
A closer look at how things go for an average teenager in India
What you need to learn from the Rajasthani Gujjars
The Most Exciting Conversation I've Ever Had -With A Stranger -In The Middle Of A Forest.
"I have observed this in the Park itself. 75% people are a form of devil. And the lies they tell are believed but the truth told by remaining 25% isn't ever. But God has an interesting way to justify things. Saints' lives never go wasted. Neither they feel pain when they die.
My father came home one day when I was still a little kid and said it was time for him to go. And the very next morning he was gone. Then after an year my mother went. The same way. Two brothers were gone too. I was left alone. But I told God, don't call me yet. I have to grow up, have a family, earn a living for them. And I did.
I have 4 kids. Two young boys and two girls. Married off both the daughters in well-to-do homes. Got a pakka house built for both sons. One is in the medical field and the other in engineering field. Everybody is content with their lives right now."
"I passed 8th grade many years ago. I went to Bikaner for a 6-month training to join this Park. I learnt many things there. I learnt English. Now I've been working here in this park for 20 years."
"We have many languages here in our Bhaarat (India). Maarwadi, Marathi, Bhojpuri, Gujarati. It is the same for this world. My Spanish friends talk to each other in Spanish-English. I keep asking them about the meanings of the words they use. Now I can sometimes make out what they talk about and even try to answer them in their language."

