Why Was I Angry First And Nauseous After?
7/7, 12:20 I never thought I'd feel anger against a dead person ever. But here it is. After numbness, strength, sadness and indifference .. I'm angry . Another emotional response that I never knew I would one day be feeling as my first response to death. In all of my experience with death before, I have coped with exactly those 4 emotions and it worked well for me. Because that is all I was able to feel! It was not confusing. It has been constant. And I wouldn't say I'd have preferred it any other way. I have always believed death makes everyone feel differently and every death makes the same person feel different. You didn't have to reaffirm that for me so soon. I already knew that! I don't have space in my heart for anger. I don't want to create one. I want to cope with this in a healthy manner but what choice do I have? I have run so many scenarios, I have raked my heart and head apart. But all I feel is ANGER. Do I wish we were on a different page? I do
